I don't know if I want to get to know me either.

I hear more and more "I don't really know anything about Sara".. This from people I have worked with for two years. People I have know for more than that. No wonder the weight of loneliness is so heavy. I think I try at times to hang with others. Get to know them. But I usually get "I am busy with someone else" or "I dont' have time." At times I am lucky to overheard others making plans. Knowing that I am not invited. This depression it puts me in hurts. I love my family. I love my husband. My child. I know that they are there for me. I am there for them. At the same time, I wish to have friends. Am I that weird? Am I that mean? Are my morals so wrong people can't stand to be around me? I have gotten to the point where I am so uncomfortable around people now, because I get the impression they don't want to be around me. There is a poster in one of the classrooms here that says "If you want a friend, be one". I have tried that in the past. But when it comes to me needing something, the other person tends to look the other way.
Is is right for someone to be this lonely? This sad about something that may seem so trivial to everyone else? After re-reading this, no wonder no one wants to hang out with me. Get to know me. I don't know if I want to get to know me either.